Lately my reading has been even more frivolous than usual: a lot of science fiction, YA fantasy, fanfiction.
I remember going to Barnes & Noble with my parents before I left for camp one summer, stocking up on books for the two months I was going to be away. I was probably twelve, or thereabouts. I was in the children’s section, picking out something by…maybe Tamora Pierce. Anyway, a twelve-year-old kind of book. My parents wanted me to get something else instead. I think it was David Copperfield. Whatever. I wanted to read kids’ books; they wanted me to read the classics.
And I love Dickens. I’ve read David Copperfield–I don’t actually know how many times. Or whether I should count the thirteen times I read an abridged version when I was in elementary school. But I think the way my reading habits have developed since then is, in several ways, a rebellion against the feeling that my parents thought the reading I did just for fun was a waste.
The books I seek out now, and write about here, were mostly considered pretty trashy in their own time, and are only legitimized–if they are legitimized–by age. I’ve read a bunch of books that are part of the canon, but I hate the idea of the canon. I don’t think anyone should take books that seriously. We should love our books, but we should love them irreverently.
No book speaks to everyone. I may think Middlemarch is the most amazing and perfect thing ever written, but not everyone is going to feel the same deep and enduring love for Nicholas Bulstrode that I do. But I can laugh at it, too–and that I also love every single character in Tracy Park, which is pretty mediocre.
I’ve just been thinking a lot lately about how I’m kind of a snob. And when I try not to be a snob I go about it in the snobbiest way possible. But I hope I’m over being a snob about books, because…there’s really nothing wrong with a bad book. The person pretentiously reading Proust on the subway is no better than the person reading a romance novel or a self help book. I may read Twilight and laugh at how bad it is, but I’m still getting enjoyment out of it. And I may read Thomas Mann and have it make me unhappy and uncomfortable, but I’m getting something else out of it. The idea of getting nothing out of a book at all is faintly disturbing to me.
So it’s all just words on pages, put there because a book–that particular book–was an ideal someone aspired to. And I think that’s kind of impossibly cool.








